hello world
i cant bealive i've finally started my diary im not sure where to start
i'll start with today & with time i'll say more about the past i couldnt sleep last night i was thinkg about him again & i just noticed that he was in the back of my head and in my heart for the last 9 yrs oh my god is it 9 yrs already ! we met in the net he was only 18 and i was 23 and back then 23 was 40 to me lettle that i know and it must felt 50 for him i thought we dont have a chance espcially that he was refreshment in a usa collage so i pushed him away and so he did but the feeling i had for him never went away strange how can u fall in love with some one very far away
yesterday i remember him and wished if i can huged him one time and tell him how i feel and why we were apart but its too late now
i was raised to be scared all my life as a grl living in kuwait you cant fall in love u cant have a realationship it was bad for urimage and reputation and you will bring shame to your familly as you can only marry in the tradition way arrange marriage sound stuiped and 17 centry i know but guss what all the girls i know had relationships on and off fall in love get dumped and went with all the drama and i used to watch them and hear all there stories and i never did a thing couse i was so scared from my father
and you cant blame me only if u knew
